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2006-10-14 - 2:28 p.m.
"Do you still want to wait for her?" "I have to. I've given all I can for..." "Do you still want to? I didn't ask if you had to." I had to seriously shut my eyes at first, before opening them again just to read his answers.:| Long-winded explanations about his sacrifices for her, from selling his lovely Fender Strat. (*snifs*) until...okay, too many to mention here.:( I'm afraid I'm going to cry again today, while I must remain my professionalism at work.*rolls eyes* God, I don't even want to hear that all over again. This is slowly and seriously killing me from the inside.:'-( It hurts me so damn much to know he's in such pain... "You haven't really answered my question, dear.:) But that's okay. I don't have to know your answer. That question is for you and only you." "I want to. Because I want her and I love her." "Okay, then let's see what will happen next February." "If she ever comes...:(" "Now you sound doubtful." "I'm even beyond that already...VERY doubtful." *deep sigh* Now I don't know what else to do or say to him.:( How can I help him? If the worst should happen in the end and he falls apart even harder than before, will I ever be able to even catch his fall? Will I ever be strong enough for something like that myself --- even only as his best friend and soul sister, perhaps? God, is he still okay somewhere out there?:( Please, let me know. I believe he's under Your Good Care. I'm not trying to prove anything to anyone here.:| Ever. I'm not trying to prove that I can love him better than she does. No. I mean, who the hell am I anyway? I know better not to, because arrogance surely will get you nowhere. The Author
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