2006-05-26 - 7:10 p.m.
I just submitted a short story for an online writing contest. Who knows if I'll get lucky?:) At least, for now, that thought of hope --- no matter how small --- has quite cheered me up.
I'm so scared these days.:| I'm very much hurt too.:'-( I'm more angry than ever before.:x Grief has also joined these three 'components' of feelings, and all of them are now boiling in my blood. What's going to happen if my temper hits flash-over?
The local news have seriously been giving me the creeps. A lot. They're all being way too much. I can't believe there are majority of citizens agreeing on that stupid new draft of bills regarding Antipornography, telling women what to wear properly. I mean, do they even know and understand the meaning of the word "proper"?
No more compromise in my country.:| They're so-called 'democracy' is a total bullshit. They don't give a shit about women --- they're giving more shit to women in my country. I can't have a peaceful life in my own country anymore. I badly need to get myself out of here, but right now...money is still the MAJOR problem. I have to get the hell out of here.:x Seriously.
Right now, I can't even breathe properly. I feel sick to my stomach. I think I'm going to throw up any second. I also feel like punching the walls until they break...or until my knuckles crack. Not exactly a brilliant catharsis, come to think of it.:P
I'm not a mundane devil, no matter what I wear. I'm not letting anybody in the world clip my wings and just take my true freedom away. I don't believe my kind should suffer another lifetime here.:'-(
God, help us please.
The Girl with The Emotional Distress
