2010-09-21 - 9:25 p.m.
Perhaps I am not always a good friend. Well, I am only human. I am well-aware of that. Maybe it is my impatience when it comes to (dealing with) nagging whiners. You know, people who love complaining a lot - on and on - about their recent situation. (Why? Only God knows.*shrugs*)
Especially people who - ugh!*rolls eyes* - feel sad about their single status. (I mean, what is so bad about it anyway?)
Let's say, I have this friend of a friend (whom I am not going to mention any name here.:P) He's a man in his early thirties, all quiet and sweet, almost nondescript - the kind who doesn't easily stand out in the crowd. (I know it's harsh, but also the truth. I am also not that striking anyway.:P) We came across each other online recently and had this pretty intense chat:
Him:"Hey, how was your holiday?"
Me:"Mostly staying home, taking care of Dad, and dealing with housework. You?"
Him:"I visited Jogjakarta, Solo, and the rest of West Java alone."
Me:"Cool.:D"
Him:"Only one thing is missing, though."
Me:"What?"
Him:"A girlfriend.:("
Me:(mutters to self:"Not today, please!") "Dude, relax.:P I am still single too and I am okay with it."
Him:"Me too."
Me:"Then why ':('?" (waits for a responds) "Man, if I were you, I'd have written something interesting with a West Java setting."
After all, Tiger's right - everybody can be a storyteller if they want to. Everyone is.:)
Him:"I'd love to, but I have no motivation."
Me:(grows impatience and annoyed)"Well, don't make that a habit. Soon you'll have to start motivating yourself."
Him:"I know, but I am weak. I always need someone to motivate me.:("
Me:"Well, that's not even an excuse! If you keep relying on people like that, will you blame them if anything goes wrong in your life? Is it their fault?"
Him:"No!"
Me:"Good. Never let your spirit die."
Him:"I still have it!"
Me:"Good."
In the end, he simply thanked me for the 'motivation' before he logged out. Phew!*deep sigh of relief* Even so, I believe that I must've shocked him pretty bad with my rather harsh, blunt responses. I mean, what did he expect from me, anyway? A sympathy? A solution? Both maybe? Why did he make it such a big deal?
Maybe I am a mean-spirited love cynic, but that's because I don't get along with love lately. Why? I've been thrown off with the same result, and - for now - I am in no mood to deal with it at all. Am I lonely? As hell, yeah. But I am still normally functioning, so there's no serious damage to worry about, is there?
I know that not all people can take it. Once again, sometimes it doesn't matter whether you're this really nice person or not. If it's not the time yet, then it's just not, okay? Perhaps for some people, it has to happen that way. Why? Maybe, just maybe...God wants them to never take things for granted. So, if one day it happens - you will never ever take it for granted, because you don't earn that easy. There is nothing wrong about being single. I thought life was supposed to be how you make the most of it - whether you're alone or with someone else. I thought it was supposed to be about becoming a better person, even without somebody else to tell you so. Not everybody will always be around for you, remember?
Oh, God.:( I sound like my parents so much. And I've already made a promise to myself not to talk about depressive things. Since love only makes me think of something dark and gloomy, I'd better move on to better things.:P
Ookay, back to being 'SBF'.;)
The Author/SBF
