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2014-12-20 - 6:30 a.m.

I�d wanted to write this for me last month, but I couldn�t find the time. I�ve been quite busy lately, but that�s okay. That�s a sign that I�m still productive as a human being.

One of my best friends has said just how more relaxed I seem to be lately. Perhaps it�s true. I think I�ve realised and begun to accept where and how I am now.

How does it feel being 33? Normal. I no longer find it �a big deal� to fret about how old I�ve become. Getting older is unavoidable and age is just a number.

Obviously, people experience being 33 differently. Maybe you�ve already been married. Perhaps you�re waiting for your first, second, or third child this year.

Or you�re about to get married � or still single, like me. Either way, that�s not a problem � as long as you�re still happy. If others still think it�s a problem, then you may ask them to check whether their own lives are problem-free. Yes, seriously.

For me? Being 33 is about being grateful. God is still so kind and gracious to let me live another year, especially since I�m half my father�s age when he passed away on January 19, 2014. He was 66. Get it? 33 x 2 = 66.

Knowing how short life really is, I�ve decided to start treating myself with more care and respect. That means no longer caring about pointless drama, especially the issues that have absolutely have nothing to do with me. I won�t try to impress people whose main goal is to bring others down in order to make themselves feel better. Why waste my precious energy when I can do something else much more important?

These days, I�m also grateful for the great friends who are still around for me � near and far. For those I get to see most often these days, thanks for putting up with me. For those whom I haven�t got to meet face-to-face after a while, I miss you. I know there are distances and schedules between us, but have faith that when it�s time � we shall meet again. Caring for each other doesn�t always mean staying close together all the time � and I�m glad that each of us have a room to grow more independently as well.

I believe I�m right where I belong now. I�m thankful that I�ve grown even closer to my true calling. Instead of constantly fretting about what I still haven�t got in life, I prefer focusing more on what I have right now. This time, I won�t even put up with shallow-minded and ignorant bullies who still think I�m not good enough or I should follow their version of �normal�. Guess what? I no longer care what they think. I want to live to be the better version of me everyday and I�m not doing it for them. I�m doing it for me, because I owe it to myself. Sadly, oftentimes they still forget and have to be reminded of this very, very simple fact:

�Every blessing comes from God. Calling a 30-something single woman �an old maid� is like insulting the poor just because you (think you) have more money / are richer. The question is, are you sure you�re really that �wealthy�?�

R. / WW.

 

 

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