2014-01-29 - 1:27 a.m.
These are the moments when I often need my shades on. I need to shield my eyes, for they can no longer camouflage myself with lies. They say it�s normal. It�s not even 40 days yet. Sometimes I fear I might crumble and throw away my last safety net. Sorry I have to hide behind these walls way too many times again. I�m afraid of another waterfall, and I�ve already caused more than a fountain. They say I�ll be okay. Once again, it�s just a matter of �when�. Right now, it�s just what I have to go through everyday, even when I�m actually too tired to pretend. I�m longing for that moment when you come back again and say that I don�t have to pretend: �It�s okay, because it�s only me. No need to put those shades on.� R. (Jakarta, 23/1/2014 � 6:45 pm)
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