2008-10-30 - 9:24 p.m.
I've been having the same nightmares lately. It's kind of gory. It's taken the solace off my sleep. I've become the same old, insomniac me again.
But the strange thing is, I'm not really scared of that nightmare. It's like, I'm already anticipating that kind of (scary) possibility. It's a warning sign. I must be prepared.
You must protect yourself in this country, because - let's just face it - nobody else is going to do that to you. You're on your own.
And those perverted hypocrites in the government of this country?:x They can all go to fucking hell with their obviously, overly-biased, absurd, and misogynicistic pornography bill (UU APP). Yes, people. Let the terror of subjectivity begin. The worst nightmare in this country is about to come to life. No, I'm not kidding you. It's about to really happen.
The shallow-minded fanatics have won.*rolls eyes* Soon they'll take over this country and start filling the public places with tyranny. No more space for everybody, unless if you obey them. No more air to breathe freely for women, because there'll be treated like sitting ducks for coward snipers or worse...pieces of meat for DOGS out there. (And no, I'm not talking about the four-footed K-9s here!)
Now I realise that I'm also endangering myself by writing the truth here. I'm well-aware of that these days. So, I'm doing this while I still can. If you don't get to hear from me in a very, very long time - that can possibly mean something's happening. No, I'm not trying to scare you. I'm just reading the signs a lot earlier than most poor, gullible, naive souls out there really do. Danger. Death to democracy and tolerance of pluralism here in this country. Welcome to hypocricy. Just feed us to the blind fanatics' constant terror and intimidation and then see what happens next. Then we all may see if they're satisfied and happy with the result from playing God to other mortals.
But I'm not afraid. I have zero respect for cowards, hypocrites, and even the combination of both, remember? So, they can all do just whatever the hell they like to me, but that can only prove something: They're nothing but such pathetic weaklings! They can arrest me or even kill me, I don't care. I shall never obey the corruptive hypocrites in the government!
If they only want to limit the adult media contents from the children, then I agree. As a woman, I'm not that happy with pornography. They want to stop human trafficking, go ahead. But here, they choose to meddle in with other people's personal business/privacy. I mean, just who the hell are they to judge others as amoral and lecture others about morality? I mean, seriously. Do they even know the meaning of the word? They say they only want to protect women and children with that? Well, bullshit!:x They just want more money and power, but they're too much of hypocrites to admit that. Just who the fuck are they trying to kid, anyway? Not all Indonesians are that dumb and shallow (and perverted too!) until they need such absurd guidance on how to behave well. Goddamn it! Do they even know the real definition of 'pornography'? They even created their own, absurd version of it. Talk about dumbass hypocrites acting like holy saints!
Do they think all women in scanty-clothings and who are out on the streets at night alone are amoral sluts? Just give me a Goddamned break here! How fucking shallow can they all be? Is the male-ego seriously bloated here? (I'm sorry if I start sounding like a man-hater here, but I have my reasons these days!)
I've dreamed of being attacked out on the streets at night alone. I kill them all. Murder's in my head these days, and I believe that self-defense is not murder.
I'm seriously thinking about getting a short haircut like I used to long ago. Why? I don't want to look beautiful anymore - not if that'll only give them an excuse to rape me, and then end up blaming me for it...:'-(
The Author
Bhinneka Tunggal Ika: united in diversity
