2006-06-09 - 7:13 p.m.
So far, I've only gotten three names --- only three! --- who signed the petition draft against the legalization of the new draft of bills regarding "Antipornography".:( I just sent them to The White Roses' Alliance's headquarter office in Tebet, South Jakarta. Anonymously.
But just to be fair, I confessed in their mailing list.*blushes* I don't want them to be confused, so I told them the truth and all about my situation right now. I've also convinced them that I'm still one of them. I am sooo against injustice like this.
And, since there's a possibility of a spy among The White Roses' mailing list, I've also warned them. Whoever they are --- if they do exist in there --- they're just a lot worse than gutless and spineless cowards (and damn, I'm starting to sound like Tiger when he's angry.*big evil grin*) No mercy from me if I ever figure out who they really are.:x
I just hope The White Roses will believe me and understand my position.:(
*deep sigh* Oh, my dearest God. What's going to possibly happen on the 10th? Help me. Help us. Help us, please. Help us from these people. I know I haven't been that good in Your Eyes, but please...
:'-(...
Anyway, my friends said I've done my best. I shouldn't feel regretful nor ashamed. I know I can't always promise the world and my everything to anybody. But, that doesn't mean I'll stop fighting.:x
Yeah, especially when I heard the latest news about The Leader of The People's Representative (MPR) in the government. His name is Agung Laksono, and I just hate him.:x He's such a gutless and spineless coward, and he makes me sick I feel like throwing up whenever I see his face on TV or hear him on the news. He simply said he wouldn't mind with the draft. Well, of course he said that.*rolls eyes* He'd be absolutely fine with that, because:
1)He's a guy --- so he's practically safe from harrassment.:|
2)He's also a filthy rich man --- thanks to this heavily corrupted government. He can do any shit he likes and just pay the local authorities to get him off the laws and breathe the free air. That's all. So easy.
3)He just doesn't give a shit about the people's rights --- not even the women.:( He just wants more money and power. I mean, he already has.
Want to know what I personally think of him?:(
Well, fuck you, Agung Laksono. FUCK YOU!!:'-X JUST GO TO HELL WITH YOUR MONEY, POWER, AND STUPID RULES!!!
I hate Balkan Kaplele too.:( He's the one who leads the committee to work on the stupid draft. He's also a guy who must be full of cash and shit at the same time. I want him to go to hell too, because he's successfully created a living hell in this once peaceful country. A fucking coward like him deserves no respect at all from anybody.
Who else? The local, legendary dangdut singer Rhoma Irama. I hate him too, because he's one of those perverted hypocrites who started all this bullshit. I remember the first time dangdut singer Inul Daratista became popular in this country. Then he started making a huge fuss about the way she danced. He said she could cause any man to commit a crime and do other sinful things because her 'outrageously seductive' dance had that effect on them. Her cry and defense weren't heard at all. He'd even called her a satan!:x
Want to know the truth about Rhoma Irama himself? He thinks he's much holier and closer to a saint than other people. (Have I told you just how much I truly despise people who love playing God and moral police?:x) But he actually got married four times, with four different women. The last time was right after he'd been caught spending a night with a random young girl named Angel --- inside a local hotel room. Just for the record, the two hadn't even tied the knot yet and --- if I'm not mistaken --- Rhoma was still married to his previous wife. Then, his marriage with Angel had been short.
So, do you think someone like him is qualified enough to judge who's the satan and who's the saint? What about Inul Daratista, who's been loyal to her husband Adam for years and never into a wild night life except her performance on stage? Why won't the government listen to her side of story? Why are a lot of women in my own country just rudely stereotyped? Why won't they make us feel safe?:'-(
They all only blamed Angel as the bitch, the slut, and the home-wrecker. Okay, perhaps she wasn't a decent lady. But what about Rhoma Irama?
Alright, I know I'm just bitching about other people's flaws here. I know it's dangerous too. I mean, if they had their IT staff find out about me, I could get killed for even just doing this.
I'm sorry, I just can't stand this whole shit any longer. This is my country too!:'-( I have the same rights to live here safely too. I have the right to breathe the night air freely and unharmed, and just go out without any disturbance nor harrassment. I mean, should I look back over my shoulder every ten freaking minutes, just to make sure I'm perfectly safe and nobody's following me with cruel intentions?? Why should I??
If that happens (may God forbid, though), will most people just blame me for that? Because I'm a woman and they still think no women should ever go out at night --- not even alone??:x
And I don't want to have people judge me easily from only what I wear. That's not fair. I don't have to put up with narrow-minded people like them. Bullies. Bullies are no good. They're so phony, thinking they're a lot better and entitled to do just whatever the hell they like to other people they cruelly judge as immoral without listening to their side of story --- only to show how worthy and powerful they are.
What's going to happen to my country tomorrow?:'-( Maybe, some people are just too ignorant to care, assuming it won't happen or it won't have a great effect on them. But I do.
*sighs*No wonder I'm so stressed out lately. I even feel like screaming NOW!!!
The Furious Author
