2006-06-01 - 7:14 p.m.
Okay, so far --- I haven't heard anything about the legalizing of the new draft of bills regarding "Antipornography" in my country yet. I didn't have time to catch up with the morning news, because I had to work early. But I've decided to keep my chocolate brown eyes open and stay cautious with my surroundings. I'm not letting any perverted hypocrites suddenly attack me with very personal questions about my life or simply accuse me for being immoral, just because of something I wear or even because I'm going out at night. Never.
I know, I'm just being hyper-sensitive and rather paranoid about this whole thing here. But hey, let's just face it and be realistic. I'm a woman. I must watch out for myself all the time.
Besides, I can't stand moral police.:x They all think they're a lot better than anyone else, but the truth is...who really knows? Who can really tell? Only God always does. Not them. Not those people.
Besides, it's been well-known in my country that these bullies have a hidden agenda. Once a group of extremists attacked a local night-club, but they didn't do anything and just left after the owner paid them about four millions.
Ha! See what I mean? Bullies. Vandalism for money, using their so-called ideology.:P
Ha-ha.*sarcastic laughter*
The point is, I won't ever accept their stupid curfew for women here.:( I also don't want to have my hair cut short and wear masculine, oversized outfits --- just to make people assume I am a guy (in hope that I'll look boyish enough), so they'll just leave me alone when they see me going out at night. The night sky belongs to me too. Just leave me alone.
I don't hate my country, but I just can't stand these people's discriminative policy.:( It's been personally insulting me and my kind. I know damn well I'm not being a bad-mouth about this.:x Besides, I didn't start this whole issue --- they did.
And I don't hate men, because I've met and known some of the wonderful ones in my life. My brother, Nanda, Joza, Tio, Luki, River, Tiger, TB (where are you now, btw? I miss you so :|), and even Dad.:)
*deep sigh* Oh, well. I hope I'm not being too extreme about this myself. But if I am, then I'm sorry.*blushes* I'm just scared, hurt, and angry at the same time. I know that not everybody in the world can always understand how this feels.
Damn.:(
Any news about the earthquake victims in Central Java? Yeah. If you've read what happened last Saturday, a 5.6 Richter scale had hit such areas like Jogjakarta, Solo, Klaten, and other small villages around at around five in the morning. There have been 6000 casualties already, while others are still lying wounded and dying. The local hospitals are packed with patients. Some refugees even have to sleep in --- get this! --- graveyard areas.
Terrible, isn't it?:( I love Jogjakarta. Malioboro street has always been my favourite place to visit at night, because it's just beautiful. Some other tourist's sites like Prambanan and other temples have been damaged by the earthquake too.
*sighs* My God...
I hope they'll just forget the damn rules and focus more on helping the earthquake victims. Those unfortunate souls deserve more and better attention than meddling in other people's privacy and women's rights to wear what they like and go out at night.:|
On a lighter note, I've read the progress in Aceh and I must say I'm pretty impressed. They've rebuilt their "Do Karim's Writing School" for youngsters in local areas.:) Very creative. After years of conflicts and battles and then the tsunami waves on December 26, 2004 --- some of the literature scholars have decided to urge the young students to just write and express themselves freely. They're so right, writing is a good therapy for mental breakdown. In fact, some of their students have published their own books. They even have "Do Karim's Bookstore" in Aceh. Unfortunately, there aren't many local people yet who love reading that much, eventhough the bookstore has offered a 30% discount.
Trust me, since I'm an avid reader, I'm curious about their books too. I hope theirs are published in my city too. I love reading about other people's cultures.:) About Aceh, so far --- I've only known about their beautiful, enchanting Saman dance. I've watched some of my high school friends perform it.:) Good memories.
Oh, well. I'll have to stay positive. Just keep praying that things are going to get better and be okay.
If not? Then I'll just simply fight for my rights!
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