2006-05-01 - 7:33 p.m.
You're not going to believe what happened to me yesterday.:|
I jolted awake at sometime around two in the morning, because I'd felt slightly out of breath and my eyelids felt itchy and heavy. I switched the light on in my room and got shocked as I'd stared at the mirror.
I'd had swollen eyelids!:O If you ever watch Will Smith in "Hitch", I think you can just imagine it.:P
All through yesterday, I was perfectly in a bad mood.:( I'd had no choice but to face my costumers in an awful condition. Most of the waitresses on duty had said I'd looked like as if I'd been crying my eyes out for hours (hell, no.*rolls eyes*) I'd had to seriously clean up my room after that. If it were a bug-attack while I'd been asleep (I'm not sure what kind of bugs), I'd make sure they wouldn't last that long in my room next time.:x
Last night, I had the most beautiful dream ever. I saw my picture in a passport, and I was busy packing --- filling my huge traveling bag. My family and Menti's and Grandpa and I were flying to some other country. I looked happier. I felt myself smiling from cheek to cheek. Most of all, I could breathe properly.
Then I woke up, and my dream simply ended in a rush. It was way too soon. It also reminded me of one thing : it's only one month left before June. My stupid, egomaniacal government is seriously planning to legalize their new laws for "Antipornography".
*deep sigh* Look, I'm not a fan of pornography as well.:| I'm also not really into too sexy clothes (especially since I'm overweight.:P) Thankfully, I've been well-taught to fight for what I believe in and stick to my principles. Thankfully, I'm not easily influenced. I also respect individuality, so I believe I have no right to easily judge other people way too much. I'm not an angel nor a saint; I too have my flaws. I know guys who own and consume X-rated items and I just close my eyes and pretend I don't see. It's their life and I won't interfere. I pretty much get along with girls who wear short skirts and tank tops, and I know not all of them are sluts who love hitting on random guys or sleep around without regrets. Even if some of them do lure guys or sleep around, I think it's their own business and responsibility to themselves. Besides, who am I to tell them what to do? I'm only human too.
Right, I know you're confused. I actually want to translate their new 'so-called' laws here, but reading the whole thing has already made me feel sick. Instead of trying to regulate how to spread the X-rated media safely and wisely and stop women and children from becoming the victims of trafficking, they are telling people --- especially WOMEN --- what to do, what to wear, what to consume, and how to act, etc.
And if there's disobedience, they'll either fine the citizens or arrest them.:x Bleh.
Alright, before I carry on, I'd like to show you a flyer displayed in Aceh that says:
"Women in tights are THE DEVILS!"
Well, what do you think? How does it feel to be rudely stereotyped, just because...let's say, a girl wears a sexy dress with spaghetti straps --- and a straight guy gets heavily attracted to her? Will you instantly blame the girl as the devil, eventhough she may have no evil intentions to tease the guy? If he ends up raping her, will she still be the guilty one?
*deeper sigh* I'm sorry. This is so frustrating.
Okay, then check out Tangerang. In their rule no:8/2005, it says whoever is out at night and looking suspicious/acting strange/suspected as a prostitute, they'll be arrested and held in an open court. Last March, a suburban wife of a substitute teacher went home from work at night and stopped by to buy a drink. It was around seven, and the cops simply arrested her. They forcefully dragged her without knowing she'd been two months pregnant. Her defense wasn't heard at all. She wasn't even given a chance to contact her husband at home. The couple didn't own a phone number. Poverty.:(
Well, from what I've heard, she's been released after an open court. They could claim it was just a false mistake, but it was already out and all over the news. And I'm sorry, I just can't forget things like that. I won't. It's still painful and infuriating, especially because I'm a woman too.:'-|
If my government's seriously legalizing their new stupid laws by June, I'll show you what will possibly happen. Picture these:
Once again, I respect individuality, but they say women aren't allowed to expose their breasts and butts (the curves) --- and it's not just about nudity, but also about tight-fitting clothes. These laws are spreading extreme hatred for sexiness, sensuality, and erotica. This will also give a sick excuse to rape a girl one day and then simply blame her and her outfit for it.
What else? You kiss your spouse's lips in public and they'll arrest you for it. A mother's breast-feeding her baby in public, and they'll arrest her for showing her assets off. If they think your dancing is 'outrageously' alluring, you'll be locked up. An artist displays an artwork of a nude woman, look what'll happen then. Worst of all, you can show up in a mall wearing your favourite pair of tight-fitting jeans and then end up in jail. Ridiculous, isn't it? It's as if they're simply blaming women as the source of pornography. They're obviously cursing my kind as the source of all sins on earth. Wtf?
Want to know what I think?:(
"I'd rather die a free woman than live in CAPTIVITY!"
And I mean it. Or else, I'd just walk away. I'm still looking for a job abroad, and I want it quick.:( I mean, if my government weren't so full of hypocrites and corruptors, there wouldn't be poverty and rage.
Happy Labours' Day.
The Grim Author
