2018-01-13 - 9:04 a.m.
I need to be brave
to show you these feelings I have
For too long I’ve been imprisoned
by my own creation of silence
I’ve been too scared
Society’s been unfair
They say I should know my place
or they’ll put me in disgrace
A lady should save her face
and always watch out what she says
I hate it
I’m suffocated
Why can’t I too be honest?
Why can’t this be expressed?
I think I’m also entitled
to open up and be straightforward
These have always happened
just because I got way too quiet
painfully shy and frightened
Why do I have to remain such a coward?
Every guy I’ve ever loved has gone away
without hearing what I had to say
Some say it’s life, although not okay
Others still blame me anyway
I think I need your help
so I won’t be too scared
Help me to find my courage
to say those three words out loud
even if I’m still choked up
by my own self-doubt:
“I...love...you...”
How about that?
R.
(Jakarta, 7/1/2018 – 9:15 am)
